Tommyboy

12th February 2012

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I’m a monster

How did this happen? So sure of everything and I do the exact opposite I said I would. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this game up, I’m down in the 4th and i don’t think I have the strength to mount a winning drive. This is way different than what I have felt before. I don’t know if its from God or myself, but its there. Ever felt like your time on earth was coming to an end? I do. Not sure where its coming from or how to take it, but it’s there. I’m scared, afraid, depressed and numb. I don’t know why I’m putting this up here, maybe it will make me feel a little better, maybe it will clear things up for me. Whatever way it turns out, my life is making a huge change. I pray its for the better.

15th January 2012

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A Lesson Never Learned

I don’t really post on here, I started too, then just forgot or got too lazy. Anyway to the 3 or so followers I have, or anyone who comes across this and cares to read it all, these are some lessons and things I have come to realize over this past semester and break. 

First off, I learned who alot of my friends were this year. Seems some people did not have my best intentions at heart and never really cared in the first place. I also found that a lot more people care about me that I thought did, and just because you don’t see and talk to someone in awhile, doesn’t mean you two still don’t have that friendship. In finding my true friends from the fake ones, I discovered that when someone realizes you know they are shallow and are done being them, they quickly try and turn the situation around on you. For some reason you don’t matter at all (not that you did anyway) once the gig is up. 

Burnt a lot of bridges this past year, one of the odd quirks of life I found out is that apparently it is less damaging to lie to women about certain things than tell them the truth….lol whatever that means. As a straight forward person, I find that difficult to comprehend. Yes if you have a problem with me or did something wrong and you just come out and tell me we will have issues, but that makes it a lot easier for me to work through it rather than just find out later what someone really thinks. But I have sidetracked. Girls are crazy. All of them. It’s maddening to try and figure out why girls do things. Some have no idea what they want and constantly flip flop decisions, others just love receiving information and then telling everyone and their mother, others go on season long mood swings. I could go on, but I digress. 

On the brighter side, I found I have an intense passion for music. Not in the playing sense, but on the business side. Promotion, signing artists, bringing new types of music into the world, and most importantly letting people know that Ke$ha and Pitbull are NOT artists. If I hear one more club beat auto tuned piece of sh*t I might as well write the music taste of the public off as dead. And all the people who are scared that I’m just talking about the “screaming” music know as hardcore, metal, whatever. Wrong. While I do love that genera, there are a lot of rap, rock, acoustic, R&B, and even country that can show up anything put out by billboards top 100. 

Anyway, to conclude and step off my musical soap box, an odd, difficult and enlightening year has passed, I can’t wait to see what the world and God has in store for me in this next one.

Best regards,

Tommy

P.S. And I kinda hope its the end of the world cause I’m not sure how much longer I can stand some people